For a long time, I carried my wounds around with me. And I used them as a way to excuse my ungodly behavior, thoughts, attitudes, etc.. I thought that as long as I could reason with myself as to why I was still choosing not to live right or according to God's will for my life, it was okay to indulge in such worldly things. And although I knew that there was a better way for me to live (because I grew up in church), I still wasn't willing to take the necessary steps to get there. I wasn't willing or ready because I wanted to continue hanging on to the things and feelings that separated me from God, and having a stronger relationship with God. This ungodly behavior made me feel better about myself, and good all around, somehow. But the more I would partake in this behavior, the more I was giving the enemy access and entry into my life. And because I was doing this, I was causing more damage to myself, and within myself. I was feeling more and more broken. And in my brokenness, I was becoming more and more like the world, and less like the image of God. This seems to be the place where we often get caught up. In this place, we often miss the will of God (just as I did), because we want to hold on to our pain, using it as an excuse to do what we want, how we want, and when we want to do it.
But no blessings or favor flows into our lives if we willingly live in disobedience/rebellion that we brought upon ourselves (for the most part), as well as the things that others have done to us.. It was at this place that I learned the true importance of letting go of my ungodly behaviors, thoughts, and attitudes so that I could get closer to Him. It was also at this place that I learned to let go of all of my pain and wounds, and allow Him to heal me. And when He healed me, I began to walk in such freedom! It was so freeing to let go of everything that once held me bound, causing me to continue to miss the very things that God had for me! Once I let Him heal me, He also cleansed me, making me new! And I was able to arrive at the places that He had already ordained for me to be! So, my advice to anyone suffering and hurting, and choosing to hold on to it for whatever reason, to simply let go! And let God heal you! There is such a better way to live, an easier way to gain all that He has for you! He waits for you! So why hold on to things that will eventually leave you broken, miserable, and confused? Why not choose to have access to all of the promises of God for your life? Let Him heal you!
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